A daily Practice

So I just watched Enlighten up. And honestly to say it has given me a sense of ease. It had a beautiful part in it where an Indian man says to the main character who is looking for answers, that you are the practice. That you are the most important person under the sun. For you truly will always be the center of your universe. Another man says, that the channel is open on both ends.

We practice health, friendliness, fortitude, compassion, and honesty on our search for truth. Yet do we truly practice the sides of ourselves that we fear. Is it the fear of these sides that make them so magnificent? Is it really that if we practised our hatred, anger, and sadness with as full devotion as we do our happiness that we would feel it blissful? I think this can not be answered. I have experience these last few days as a cathartic state throbbing out of me. One of anger, hatred, loneliness, laughter, smiling, and crying. In this expression, I have been able to observe myself deeply. And I noticed the times I had the “hardest” with it, was when I resisted, that it was when I clung to an idea. That when I gave importance to the time and my surroundings in a way that wasn't real, like the people who may hear or observe me, may think I'm crazy. But I said crazy, not them!!!

And so I shook and shivered, laughed and slobbered. I watched myself do exactly what I wanted to do and I felt free. Now don't take me wrong, I'm not talking about enlightenment, I'm not speaking of Samadhi. More and more these past few days I have realized an insignificance of “higher” states. That they to are still just an idea that we have placed far away from our fears and made them the goal. So find yourself free, find yourself here. Everything can be exciting when you listen deeply and truthfully to what you believe.