The two things in my life I have thought most about.
Such emotion, such passion, such inquisition.
Such acceptance in the alienation I have felt in each of these.
Such enthralment I have held in companionship with both at different times in my life.
I have wanted nothing more then to be one with death at times where I was ready to give up, but here I am, her I stand still living this life. Because I felt purpose in my belonging, that there was something whispering to me that there was more then what I had already experienced, that love would call me, that it would stand by my side and reveal to me, myself.
This is why I say “I believe in you” because I know there is more then the suffering we have shared with the silence, that your words have not been unanswered, that your calling has been the answer you have been searching for.
Its all the little things, its all the beautiful, terrible, stupendous, extravagant, imaginative, simplistic, unheard of, little things that reside not without, but within. The subtleties of you, the life and death, the love and affliction of our human experience.
So if you could see these little things for what they are, and I know you do, because I have at times. Would you start to see something real, something more significant?? And could you see them for what they are?? Unconditionally?? Could we find ourselves in a place where love was not a dream, but an actuality of real life, broken up into little things for us to appreciate. Appreciate as parts of ourselves, as extensions of the grandest mode of belief we could ever “image in” to our senses. The question is, Are you ready?? Ready to jump into life, and to die! Ready to accept that all that you have ever excepted as you (your home, workplace, family) are created in your mind. Its all inside you, the whole world!!
Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Icing on the Cake
The sweetness here inside our hearts
Is all the love, is all our parts
The way she speaks is sharp and clear
But she speaks so slow
We must stop to hear
Shes in our blood and in the trees
Shes in our food and in the seas
Most of all this sweetness grows
From the depths of all our souls
Its in our nature to be this sweet
Thats why we sleep
And why we eat
To see the world as sweet sensation
To see this sweetness as a way to speak
We see our lives as more then change
We see them as a sweet exchange
Where depths of sense becomes our trust
Where love and hope moves us
Such is this sweet
Sweet lovely sweet
That no more words
Could greet and meet
Let slowness guide you
To your place
Where sweetness greets you
With your grace
Is all the love, is all our parts
The way she speaks is sharp and clear
But she speaks so slow
We must stop to hear
Shes in our blood and in the trees
Shes in our food and in the seas
Most of all this sweetness grows
From the depths of all our souls
Its in our nature to be this sweet
Thats why we sleep
And why we eat
To see the world as sweet sensation
To see this sweetness as a way to speak
We see our lives as more then change
We see them as a sweet exchange
Where depths of sense becomes our trust
Where love and hope moves us
Such is this sweet
Sweet lovely sweet
That no more words
Could greet and meet
Let slowness guide you
To your place
Where sweetness greets you
With your grace
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Uncertainty and solace
My mind finds itself questioning yet again. At the least, I know that my mind is in order, of what it is good at. The question at hand comes form the shift I have felt in my own life these past few weeks. In this place I have found that my certainty had never been certain and uncertainty has been my only solace. From my opinions to practice, I have known nothing of anything. Yet words have been a way of communicating the feelings that are most true to me, but yet these words have not been able to convey fully the expression that is to be expressed.
Although I have felt no more truth in my connection and communication then with the people I have shared with, my authenticity. That it was not the words that were said, but the driving force of self recognition and honesty that drew forth the trust and truth between them and I. Here I felt the ground beneath my feet and the heaven in my sight. SO what really is the question???
My mind is in question, and so it seems that this is what I must be at peace with. That the communication that resides true in my heart is the one where my words will be nurtured. That this place of sweetness will be the one to guide me.
And as much as I wish to elaborate on my vagueness, it is impossible. For this place that is in truth, can only be experienced. And that this overwhelming pulsation of intimate emotion within myself can only be expressed when it is “time”, when it is in truth, grace, and offering.
So what do I have to offer??? My mind begins to question, yet my heart begins to warm, as I feel my life's intention to be and show by example what it is to be. I am here to offer a view, perhaps another perception for some to see through. I offer my heart in both hands, I surrender to it all, and ask only that you would treat me truthfully in the best way you feel right now.
Although I have felt no more truth in my connection and communication then with the people I have shared with, my authenticity. That it was not the words that were said, but the driving force of self recognition and honesty that drew forth the trust and truth between them and I. Here I felt the ground beneath my feet and the heaven in my sight. SO what really is the question???
My mind is in question, and so it seems that this is what I must be at peace with. That the communication that resides true in my heart is the one where my words will be nurtured. That this place of sweetness will be the one to guide me.
And as much as I wish to elaborate on my vagueness, it is impossible. For this place that is in truth, can only be experienced. And that this overwhelming pulsation of intimate emotion within myself can only be expressed when it is “time”, when it is in truth, grace, and offering.
So what do I have to offer??? My mind begins to question, yet my heart begins to warm, as I feel my life's intention to be and show by example what it is to be. I am here to offer a view, perhaps another perception for some to see through. I offer my heart in both hands, I surrender to it all, and ask only that you would treat me truthfully in the best way you feel right now.
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